I feel very comatose and, well, for lack of a better word, blah lately. Maybe lethargic is a good word... I don't know. Life seems to move so slow, and yet amazingly fast. Some minutes seem like hours and some weeks like days. I'm in a rambling mood so bear with me.
The other day I was reading Proverbs and something really incredible dawned on me: You know how in Proverbs 1 the last part of the chapter is all about Wisdom "calling in the streets" etc? (yes, you should know but if you don't--look it up!). Well, for some reason I had always thought, well, let me pull in my horses here, and let you read the verses for yourself first (yep, you don't have to look it up after all).
20 Wisdom cries aloud in the street,in the markets she raises her voice;
21 at the head of the noisy streets she cries out;at the entrance of the city gates she speaks:
22 How long, O simple ones, will you love being simple?How long will scoffers delight in their scoffing and fools hate knowledge?
23 If you turn at my reproof,behold, I will pour out my spirit to you;I will make my words known to you.
24 Because I have called and you refused to listen,have stretched out my hand and no one has heeded,
25 because you have ignored all my counsel and would have none of my reproof,
26 I also will laugh at your calamity;I will mock when terror strikes you,
27 when terror strikes you like a storm and your calamity comes like a whirlwind,when distress and anguish come upon you.
28 Then they will call upon me, but I will not answer;they will seek me diligently but will not find me.
29 Because they hated knowledge and did not choose the fear of the Lord,
30 would have none of my counsel and despised all my reproof,
31 therefore they shall eat the fruit of their way,and have their fill of their own devices.
32 For the simple are killed by their turning away,and the complacency of fools destroys them;
33 but whoever listens to me will dwell secure and will be at ease, without dread of disaster.
Wisdom is always calling out to me, all day long. I can either choose to ignore her, or gain from her knowledge. The point of this part of Proverbs 1 is this: Wisdom will call, but eventually she'll STOP. If I ignore her long enough, she'll stop attempting to help me and instead ignore me as I have ignored her. But there's more than that. Not only will she ignore me when I WANT her to ignore me, but when I actually want her, she may not be there. This is tough stuff here! And it scared me the other day... To think that Wisdom would "mock" and "laugh" when we needed her most... Haven't you ever seen a family or individual who has made many many bad choices and now has a genuine desire to do better, yet seems to only make worse mistakes (out of ignorance, or what-have-you)? Now I understand why that happens... I'm not saying it's ever too late to change and God can definitely do anything; but this took my attention and I've made a renewed commitment to listen to Wisdom as opposed to ignoring her. I am pleased to find that throughout the day I realize that I'm internally telling myself (within different situations) "Wisdom is crying out--come on, Katie, LISTEN!" I am still a long way from listening even half the time *sigh* But with God's help I will never become insensible to what Wisdom has to say to me... Now read that part about Wisdom again (above) and put it within those little circumstances when you have choices all throughout the day... It's incredible and hard, but so good... God bless and thanks for reading my ramblings :)
PS I put a few pictures on our family blog, if you're interested. www.cochranfamily101.blogspot.com